Gaming : Quote Sheet From The Past

If you've ever done table top gaming (ok, any type of gaming actually) You know that there are often moments that end up causing a lot of laughter among a group of people. This particular quote sheet is kind of old, and comes from July 2007. I'm looking around to see what other sheets might be kicking around. I'll probably share them as well because it's amusing to remember the good times.

I believe these quotes are from a Ravenloft campaign. I had the quote sheet thanks to Keri.

The things you remember. The things you wish you could forget. You never know what shows up in the quote sheets.

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Tyler: Horror checks are kind of like sanity checks.
Keri: I keep hearing that as "whore checks."
Liz: Yeah, Joe, roll a whore check, you've got a bunch of women chasing after you not wearing anything.
Michelle: Wouldn't a whore check be to protect against STDs?

Tyler: Like level 0 village people.
Keri: What? Oh, you mean people from the village, not like Village People the band.
Michelle: You killed the Indian!

Tyler: Okay, Keri, you come into being tied up on a horse in the middle of the marsh.
Keri: Kinky.
Liz: Does she have clothing?
Tyler: *grabs dice*
Keri: What are you doing?
Michelle: He's rolling a clothing check.

Liz: So that's why I healed him, little one.
Michelle: I'm way the hell behind you. You're not making snide remarks to me.
Joe: She's talking to a snake or something.
Michelle: Yeah. "That's why I healed him" and then it's like *snap!* Aaahhh!

Liz: Because I'm within touch range and he's doing more damage than I am, I'm gonna grab him...
Tyler: Kinky.
Michelle: I'm telling you, that Book of Erotic Fantasy is going to come out any minute now.
Joe: I think I'm the wrong height for that.
Michelle: Roll for your sexual response to her touch. Oh, Joe, that was a BAD time to fumble.

Liz: I think it's a little too big. Pencil?
Keri: Wait, what about the pencil?
Michelle: I don't think I want to touch anything you've touched...

Great moments in precognition:
Michelle: Here comes a 1!
Joe: *rolls a 1*

Michelle: He kills the enemy and lops your head off. Everyone's a winner!

Keri: Okay, so I stand up and stop drowning?
Tyler: Hey, smarter than the ranger!

Keri: Wait, it's her horse? Why am I on her horse?
Liz: That's a good question. What're you doing with my horse?
Keri: Oh well, you know, he and I really hit it off, we eloped...
Michelle: Is bestiality okay in Ravenloft?
Liz: Probably!

Liz: Handle animal.
Keri: Emphasis on the "handle."
Tyler: Is that why the horse liked you so much?
Michelle: Man, that horse gets around. Oh, I get it. Whore-se.
Keri: Roll a whore check?
Michelle: This just keeps devolving.

Joe: The Circlet of Sex Change fell off.

Joe: Is there anything on this old hag? Oh, wait, I mean night-hag. Some kind of hag, anyway.

Joe: Do you know the Muffin Man?
Keri: Yes, in fact, I do. I killed him and brought him back as an undead creature, and he makes baked goods at my bidding.
Joe: Un-baked goods.

Joe: If we see a vampire, should we ask if he has wall meat?
Michelle: We should ask how well-cooked it is.

Liz: I'm going to assume you want it.
Michelle: *looks dismayed*
Keri: Informed consent! Informed consent!

Michelle: Can I appraise her gems even though she didn't ask, just to look?
Tyler: Sure, if you want to grab her gems.
Michelle: His gems. "Excuse me, sir, you seem very masculine, may I touch your gems?"

Tyler: *on the phone* Aside from the shit in the fridge?
Joe: Ew, you store it in there?
Keri: That's probably not sanitary.
Joe: I hope it has its own drawer, at least.

Michelle: Are you going to probe him with your wand? "You were turned into a mutant cow that was promptly eaten by the rest of the party."
Keri: *to Joe* Wouldn't that be cannibalism for you?

Liz: *looking at the book* Ew, what's that scary-looking thing?
Michelle: That's Joe.

Tyler: Which way do you want to go?
Keri: Can we go the way without the freaking dragon? Is there a sign saying "dragon this way, not dragon that way"?
Tyler: *chokes on his drink*
Michelle: You killed the DM!

Liz: I'm hanging out with the hottie.
Keri: Me? I'm creepy. I'd probably look at you like I want to kill you and nail your insides to a tree.

Michelle: You two get some sleep. Don't do anything funny.
Liz: Nothing kinky in the tent?
Keri: You, me, your insides, the tree...
Michelle: That sounds like a terrible song.

Liz: I miss my horse.
Michelle: Is that what you dream about at night?

Joe: *answers the phone* Hi, hon.
Liz: Is that Jacqueline?
Michelle: No, he regularly answers "Hi, hon" when his dad calls, actually.

Liz: I think there's something out there. You should go investigate. Come on, be a man!
Joe: I find it interesting that the fighter is sending the cleric out.

Joe: I can take out my fuzzy blue sack.
Liz: Do you need Joe's sack?
Keri: Don't we all. Don't we all.
Michelle: Do we all? Do we all?

Tyler: The remaining three rats run off into the water.
Liz: Wait, they go in water? They're water rats?
Joe: You do know rats go in water in the sewers, right?
Liz: Ew!
Keri: What did you think they did, ride on little rafts?
Jacqueline: That's where the Spanish got the idea for boats.
Michelle: Yeah. "Armada" came from an old Spanish word for rat.

Liz: Ratboat sounds like a racial slur.
Joe: For what race? Rat people?
Michelle: Hey, don't be dissing on Splinter!

Michelle: Everybody steals from everybody else.
Jacqueline: Really? I'm going to try that at the store. *eating motions* "Everyone steals from everyone! This is a P2P network!"

Michelle: It was too much Ravenloft! We can't take you to the zoo, you'll kill the peacocks.

Liz: Mark still comes! You just don't come!
Everyone: *chuckling, slowly building to laughter*
Liz: *long pause* Aaaugh!

Tyler: *on the phone* That's what you get for picking up four-year-olds.
Keri: What? Isn't that illegal?
Liz: Sounds kinky, Tyler.

Michelle: I have to find a way to get Guitar Hero here. The guitar controller doesn't fit in anything.
Tyler: Use a Bag of Holding?

Keri: The naked cowboy does not conform to your standards of beauty.

Music Monday : A New Start

2016 is finally almost over meaning it's time to give ourselves new perspective. It's not the end of the world, and the people we need to think about are the ones around us. We want to change it, and change always starts small if it's going to be effective. There's always time. I hope you had a great holiday, that you're safe and healthy, and that your new year will be amazing.

A Great Big World - This is The New Year

Two Door Cinema Club - Next Year

Fall Out Boy - Happy New Year Baby

Jewel - Have A Little Faith in Me

And don't judge me, but here's a couple from Sesame Street, just because.

What's on Screen? : White Christmas

Every family has a tradition. Sometimes they fade away through the years, in favor of new things. But there's always a few that linger on for some people, for different reasons am sure. White Christmas is a family tradition that I really don't want to see die. It's a little complicated I suppose, or maybe some people might think my reasons for holding on so tightly to this movie are sad or convoluted. But I'm going to try and explain why this movie is important to me.

We're all trying to find a place to feel happy. Christmas is a time where it can be hard for people. There's loss that's happened during the year that can feel magnified around the holidays. There are some people who feel alone at the holidays, even when they're surrounded by others. People long for times in their past where they remember feeling happy.

White Christmas is a movie that my family used to watch at Christmas time with my grandparents. It's special because of that. But the reason why is because of a feeling of connection there was for the film for my grandfather. During the war he was part of the actual 151st Division. I don't really know much about it because I'm not old enough to remember much more than that, because I was reinformed the year I told my parents that's what I wanted for Christmas, a copy of the film.

So I'm sitting here after having watched it again, feeling nostalgic and teary eyed because I miss them. But the movie isn't sad, in fact it's quite positive. It's inspiring that sometimes with a little perseverance things can become more positive. Besides that it also plays with the idea of love being no ones business except the parties involved.

I don't know if I'm going to write another post before Christmas. But I want to get this out there. I know it can be a scary time of year. Emotionally and physically it can be taxing. So if anyone is having a rough time, I just want to share some important information again. In case anyone reading this is feeling depressed, distraught, or at the end of their rope. I'm sharing part of a post I made a while ago. Please have a safe holiday season, and don't give up.

(I know I've totally lost focus from discussing the film, but with the holiday looming I want to remind people that there is help.)

If you really are feeling as though there is nothing left for you, talk to somebody. Feelings change, and so do situations and the things that are happening around us. There are friends, and family who can help you. Or if you're uncomfortable approaching them you can talk to a counselor. If you still are unsure you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-888-273-8255. You can call and talk to them about anything. In fact they're available 24/7 if you need to talk about anything.

NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE

More information can be found at the library, counselor centers or online if you want to learn more about this. Don't be afraid to reach out for help if you ever feel that death is your only option. If you don't ask for it, how can anyone be sure you need it? Also, please remember to be there for your friends. Don't blow them off if they mention wanting to hurt themselves, it's not a laughing matter.

Check these links for more information. Teenage Suicide Information  and Wiki Information on Suicide

Music Monday : Am I A Grinch?

I kinda feel like a grinch. I don't feel like it's the holidays, in fact I'm not really feeling the holidays at all this year.  Maybe I've outgrown them. Besides it's awfully cold, and this Christmas stuff... well it's sort of over rated.

So today I'm picking some music that I listen to while I'm at work to share with you. Mind you, it's not holiday stuff, but I hope it helps to make your week easier and less hectic. And if you are into this holiday stuff... good luck. It's not a bad thing, it just is what it is.

Saints of Ruin - Halloween Song

The Airborne Toxic Event - Wishing Song

Eartha Kitt - Snuff Out The Light

The Cog is Dead - Burn it Down

Jill Tracy - Evil Night Together

What's on screen? The Pagemaster

Movie night can be a lot of fun, but sometimes it's nice to go back to things you may not have seen for years. That's what we did this past saturday. We were out and about and one of my best friends saw The Pagemaster in a bin of movies and picked it up. It was surprising to see it out and available, since it's been a long time since I've seen or even thought about it. (Though not to long ago I did see an audio book on cassette for it....)

Image from fanart.tv

The Pagemaster is one of those movies with layered details. There's things I noticed in our most recent viewing I hadn't noticed before. And the music! As the movie started I got serious chills. It's stupid I guess to say that, but it was wonderful.

Why?

Because as a movie that I watched as a kid, to see it again as an adult and review the content, I had a chance to think about it again. The lessons taught by the film, and the way that they're shown is rather direct. It's not trying to trick you. It's very straightforward.

I'm just babbling I guess, but I want you to think about showing this movie to your children if you have any. Let them toy with the idea of what books mean to them. Let them think about how amazing a story can be if they envision it, not just watch it on tv.

Then take them to the library. Let them explore the many volumes of literature that they CAN touch, read, and enjoy free of charge. Magic can be found in the pages, if you take the time to see them.

Music Monday : Sure.... We Can Do Holiday stuff.

But that doesn't mean that we really want to. I'm still not feeling that christmas spirit, although I have started doing cards. Not a ton of them because I can't get too many stamps. But I'm going to send a few out, because why not. Other than that nope. Not feeling this holiday stuff at all.

Heck, I am even so frustrated and irritated about it I almost swore right there. But hey, it's ok. Maybe listening to some holiday music will help. But then again... there's no guarantee of that. Maybe I've grown up to be a Grinch. But how about a sampling of Christmas music from when ~I~ was younger. Maybe that'll help... and maybe some of you miss them too. So why not.

Hanson - Merry Christmas Baby

*NSYNC - Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays

Backstreet Boys - It's Christmas Time Again

Spice Girls - Christmas Wrapping

New Kids On The Block - I'll Be Missing You Com Christmas

Be The Change

Because YOU have free will.

I'm sick of seeing all this crap on facebook that says "God will Make America Great Again" or other various iterations of the same, sometime saying the bible, or Trump. It doesn't work like that. You can't fix America by using pictures and then sitting back and mocking other people.

I hate the posts people make to belittle other people (stupid videos are different than just a photograph with commentary printed on it). If you aren't interested in the appeal someone might share with various folks, DON'T look! You don't have to linger on images or things that brew nasty negativity. Sharing said things doesn't make you a bigger person either, it makes you smaller. And proves that YOU are looking for someone to feel like you are better than.

I hate to tell you this but you're not better than anyone else. At any of our cores, when stripped of clothes, accessories, names, titles, and the skin, we are the same. Our insides are all meat, fleshy bloody cores. Skin color doesn't mean anything. All it means is that we have different backgrounds.

We're all human and the only way to make anything great again is to use our free will. God (regardless of what you call the higher powers in your life) granted free will to humans, we're not puppets that he will manipulate. So stop trying to pretend he's going to change everyone else to fit YOUR mold of what you want.

The world is a BIG place, and it doesn't include only you and the things that you're comfortable with. In fact there's people out there that may be uncomfortable with the things you take for granted. It's even scarier because there are people who want to use religion as a way to rule everyone. But not everyone follows that religion. Remember that at it's core there was a separation of religion and government for a reason.

So if you want to see change, start being the change. Be nicer to people, stop sharing mean things. Start saying more positive things to other people. Work on building people up. Because the real downfall of anyone is when people stop caring about each other and focus on their little corner of the world. We need to stop and think about it.

Start shopping at smaller businesses to keep the money in our local communities. Help people who may not be doing as well as you are. (And not only during the holiday season, every part of the year). Buy handmade items, frequently they last far longer than store bought. Repair things, fix things. Money is one of the things that ruins people. But if you start using it wisely to build your community, you will see a change.

So stop being so negative, and start taking steps to enrich your community by caring about it. PARTICIPATE. Take note of what needs to be done, and even if you can't do it, maybe talk to someone who can. Make friends, friends are the family you weren't born with. So make friends and take care not to hurt them.

Use your free will wisely. And no matter where you are, you'll see things improving.

Stop being a negative ass.

Thanks.

The Lion King 2 - We Are One

Music Monday : Not This Again

Yeah it's another Monday. YAY! (I hope you can sense the sarcasm in that.) Anyway, I figured maybe today we'd have some steampunk music again because it's been a bit since we looked at it. And let's be honest, we LOVE steampunk music around here.

So here to bring your week a nice taste of fun, steampunk!

Abney Park - The Story That Never Starts

Ruckus Juice Jug Stompers - Salty Dog

Steam Powered Giraffe - Fancy Shoes

Rasputina - You Don't Own Me

Asylum Street Spankers - Monkey Rag

I'm Not Going To Change The World

I have never really thought about my life as being something that was going to be important. In fact, I've come to the conclusion my life is anything but important. But the truth is I've come to accept this. Before you go jumping on me and arguing otherwise, let me explain slightly why I'm accepting this.

First of all, I'm old enough now that I have to admit I'm not likely to go on any world changing adventures. Unlike hobbits who live many years, or elves or dwarves...us mere humans have a much lower mortality age. We don't live as long so if we want an adventure it's expected that we do it while we're young, before our bones begin to creak, or hair silver. When a human gets old, we're not nearly as likely to adventure well.

Then there's the matter of freedom. I've gotten to the point where I honestly feel caged. Being caged doesn't really give any of us a chance to actually explore or create freely. Instead we're trapped in the views that others have projected upon us. I've been trapped so long I can honestly say I feel as though I have forgotten who I wanted to be.

Money is also something people use to cause change. I must admit to you, I have very little and what I do have isn't really going to make any mind boggling changes to the world. So it appears that philanthropy is something that I'll have to leave to other people.

But while I am accepting all this, I do know something deep in my heart. While I may not be able to change the world, I can change how someone else sees it. I can offer positivity, and encouragement to those who need it. I don't have to let my place in what appears to be the hierarchy of the world be the definition of who I am.

Instead, I can choose to define myself. Letting my definition inspire others. Maybe not world changing, but if it helps one person to find true happiness, that's all that's going to matter in the end.

Music Monday : I'm tired too

Something to give you a little zip to your week. I know some of you are having a rough time lately. I can't say things will get better, because there's no way to know.

New Years Day - I'm No Good

S.J. Tucker - In The Name Of The Dance

Nickel Creek - The Lighthouse's Tale

Yeah I know I only picked three songs, but there's a reason for that. I'm just so tired ~_~ Sorry.

What's on Screen? Ghostbusters

This past weekend I finally had the chance to watch the new Ghostbusters movie. I have a few things to say about it on a whole. But before I get into that, I want to tackle other peoples opinions about the film.

The majority of reviews and comments that I saw in reference to this film were negative. A lot of people did not give it a warm reception, instead they wanted to compare it to the original 2 films from the 80's. Doing that leads to a few problems in my opinion. The 80's are a rather nostalgic time right now, because it's what people grew up with or watched with their kids. (Yeah... I know that sounds weird but hear me out). This means when they saw the name Ghostbusters, they were likely expecting the same sort of film. Filmography and what people expect in movies is much different now.

What was high tech and scary back in the originals is corny now. It doesn't get the same reaction from the audience. Technology has also improved, meaning there was a great window to try some new effects. To be honest, while yes I'd have been interested to see the film as a continuation of the original films, the reality is it wasn't a feasible idea.  So I'm not going to tell anyone that didn't like the movie that they should have, or ought to. But I am willing to listen to their complaints and give my own account of what I thought.

So first things first. The more or less all female cast. I found this refreshing, mainly because I do feel there is a rather sad amount of positive female role models in the media. I don't care if they're not conventional or 'kardashian' gorgeous. I found them appealing on a number of levels. They were almost real. They seemed like people you might actually run into.

The male villain, surprising as it was, gave the story a validity. I could believe that a person could try to cause mayhem, due to selfish aims. I could see them using similar technology based on the same research. I could also feel sorry for him. Not because he was bad or good, but just because he seemed to have gone off the deep end.

The sets were rather nice, I had no complaints on that. The story didn't lag or slow down. There wasn't too much nonsense, though the ghost fighting scene near the end did remind me a little bit of the Power Rangers. So yeah, it was a funny as well as entertaining.

There was one thing about the movie that bothered me a lot. The soundtrack lacked something. Most of the music was decent. Yet the longer song sequences grated my nerves because they didn't feel like they fit into the film. It was almost like they were trying to force the music to fit. I wish they would have gotten one of the original soundtrack writers (though it looks like after some research that might not have been feasible... I didn't realize so many people from then aren't around anymore). In honesty it was the only part of the movie I think could have been improved. Which means most of the movie was awesome. So I have to say I do recommend it.

Pokemon are still a Thing

And that's alright. In fact it's kind of awesome.

When I was a bit younger, I remember Pokemon being a cartoon on tv. I also remember eating a LOT of Kids Meals trying to find the talking Pikachu my little brother wanted. I also remember playing Pokemon Gold on a black and white Gameboy.... But in today's modern Pokemon Go phase there is a multitude of merchandise being pushed. But with that in mind, there's a number of unique items you can collect to accessorize and show off your love of the little digital monsters, regardless of the team you've chosen.

You don't doubt me on that I'm sure, but to prove the point I'm going to share some of the interesting things that I've seen on Etsy of late. I'm always exploring and enjoying the various pieces people share there.

So one of the first item's I'd like to share with you actually surprised me. Because it turned up in my feed when I was researching chainmail, not Pokemon.

These chainmail pokeballs are gorgeous little heavy duty keychains, that you can see offer a unique take on the classic pokeball.  They're available in a variety of colors (and I suspect if there's a color you'd prefer other than what's shown, well... maybe it can happen). Love these and highly recommend them for the more classic gamer type, or even the newer sort. They have a nice classic edge to them. When this blog was written they were available for $6.00, not bad for gifting. (Just remember to order early) Find them here : Aislinn's Collared Designs Chainmaille Pokeball

Our next selection is actually something that plays with the fighting between the teams.

A maker called TheFreshPinsofLA has this pin available. To my rather untrained eye, it appears to be a combination of the three team emblems featured in Pokemon Go! The Team Harmony pin made me smile, because it was a unique take on a rather silly thing. People shouldn't be split up based on the team they pick, unless it's friendly rivalry of course. You can find the pin here:  TheFreshPinsofLA Team Harmony Pin

The next thing up for your perusal is something that I kinda wish I'd get to see in person. I'd wish it was something I could get except I'm not really someone that looks good in yellows.

Isn't it the cutest apron ever? It's a Pikachu cosplay apron! It even has a tail!!! It'd be an awesome look for any Pokemon fan that's not really sure they'd be comfortable in an adult onesie at con. Or for a gal (or guy) who wants to cosplay as a couple (you know.... if their partner wants to be Ash or something >.>). These are handmade by a seamstress that I've been following for a long time, and I do personally own some of her pieces. Maybe I'll share them sometime, but her attention to detail on this piece is smashing! So YES! Pikachu Cosplay Apron for the Win! Find it here : Violet Phoenix Designs Retro Anime Cosplay Apron (P.S. She also has some awesome Team Ties available)

I hate to admit it, but the next item I'm sharing plays into one of my personal odd likes.

Yes, that is an Oddish Planter. It's adorable, and everytime I look at the picture I can't help but smile. The idea is really cute, and they also have Bulbasaur available. Meaning you can pick whatever plants (within size reason) you want to grow out of them. Too cute, and also a reasonable gift for the holidays. Available here : 3DPMakery Pokemon Planter

And how about something to end on a giggle.

Yes... That is a Deadpool Pikachu Cross Over enamel pin. Why I found it in my instagram feed, I have no idea. But I love this pin. It's in my checkout basket right now, I just haven't figured out if it's one of those purchases I want to make because it's a cross over of two fandoms I kind of like... Or if it's a purchase I want to make because it's a cross over idea I never would have expected. It's too cute and I laughed too hard.  You can find this on etsy here : KingOfThePin Deadkachu Pin

Anyways, I'm glad you stopped by, and I hope you're still enjoying your Pokemon of various sorts as much as I am. See you soon!

Music Monday : No Numbers Please

Yeah I know we've really fallen behind when it comes to actual entertainment value. But I do promise that it's going to be improving in the near future (mainly because I'm having a lot of fun with instagram and I have been enjoying the community of makers that is on it.) But right now it's monday and I want to share some music (some that I've shared before probably) that sum up how I feel lately.

Don't give up just because we're little. Little things make up a large whole when put together <3 You're amazing and You should never forget it. <3 We're more together than apart too. ... and I'm babbling, sorry. On to the music!!!

Emeli Sande - Read All About It

Ingrid Michaelson - Be Ok

Meghan Trainor - Close Your Eyes

Dove Cameron - Better in Stereo

Lenka - We Are Powerful

It's finally November

Which means that Halloween is over, Thanksgiving is on it's way, and Christmas has already run over everything else.

Yeah, stores are already full of Christmas merchandise and have been quick to add more the closer november came. It's kind of disappointing honestly. I'd like to have a little time to work through my holidays and reflect on them a little, not feel like I have to be done with them already. But on the plus side, I have to say I do have my christmas presents mostly purchased and the majority of them are wrapped too.

Yay for small accomplishments.

When I have some time to get my life back in order, I'll do a post about some of the awesome things I've picked up in the past month. I won't spoil them now by listing them either.

I am kind of glad that the Halloween season is over, I did enjoy my time working at Spirit Halloween. But I don't really feel like I got to celebrate, even if we did go to the event at the beginning of last month. I'm kind of disappointed because of how I feel.

I also have a lot of sad feelings, but I'm trying to sort them out.

I'll try to get you a proper update soon. Thanks for caring enough to read, and I hope you've been having a safe year.

Just Visiting : Halloween In The Catskills

Wow it's been a while since I actually posted about having gone somewhere. Mainly because it's been a while since I really have gone anywhere that I haven't talked about on here before.

So first things first. We scheduled to go on this trip months ago, sort of blindly. We've never gone to one of the Jeff Mach Events before. But we've talked to some people who have and they spoke highly of them. So we packed rather lightly and Halloween generic, since we weren't really sure how other people dress, Though after the fact we decided we felt slightly under-dressed(but that's a horse of a whole different color).

Halloween in The Catskills was held at the Blackthorne Resort in Durham New York, meaning it was a bit of a ride from Buffalo. About 4 hours or a little more is what it took us to get there, and that was mainly because we kept getting behind people that were not driving the speed limit. Luckily I spent a decent portion of the drive asleep in the back seat. The back seat is sort of my designated hiding place for the really long trips, because I do have a tendency to fall asleep in the car anyway.

Anyway, our gps sort of brought us into the place through the back so it was a little confusing at first, and we sort of drove all the way through the resort and out the other side before realizing that we were there. Kind of funny I guess. But we turned back around and found a parking spot. When we walked into the resort office we were tickled and surprised to find an amazing display of Dr. Who memorabilia that was shaped like a Tardis, A small toe pincher like casket with a viewing window, and a variety of steampunk and Halloween style decor. Oh and let me throw this out there, it definitely seems (after going through more of the resort) that the steampunk type stuff is a permanent fixture. I found this to be both encouraging and interesting. We've never really gone somewhere that really did have steampunk things as part of their permanent appeal.

This was on Saturday night when we dressed up.
 The Mind enhancer was really cool looking and creative,
 and a GREAT photo opportunity.

It took us a little while to find our room, but once we did we settled in to deciding what we were going to do. I traipsed off to explore a little before a lot of other people got there, and when I got bored with that I went down and joined the pumpkin decorating in the pub. Yes, I said pumpkin decorating in the pub. I met some very nice people and decorated the pumpkin of my choice. I chose one of the tinier pumpkins because I knew it would be something no one would be upset about if I brought it home to enjoy. (take up as little space as possible at home, don't ask.)

Throughout the weekend we did a variety of things, we explored the various vendors that were available, saw live music performances, heard stories, and enjoyed an amazing variety of food that was made in the resorts kitchen. The staff were amazing and there was really a lot to enjoy. I will admit that I had to go lay down for a while because I wasn't feeling well, but while I do feel a bit guilty for missing out on some of the fun, it's part of life that I've accepted.

^_^ We even got to take a group picture with The Long Losts!

All in all we had a wonderful time. I really enjoyed being in a place where it felt like most everyone was like us. It was fantastic to feel accepted, even if we didn't know anyone very well. Acquainting ourselves with a new group/event pool felt wonderful. And everyone was superbly nice. I added some new music to my collection, picked up another t-shirt, and buttons! Oh my gourd the buttons! I haven't took pictures of them but the buttons made me very happy. ^_^

This is some of what I brought home with me from the event,
other than, you know, memories.

So, just because I want to make sure I share more. I'm going to set you up with some links to a few of the groups that we had the pleasure of seeing over the weekend. If you're curious about how the weekend was in person, by looking into them you may get a glimpse at the entertainment, and a little bit of insight into how the event went. It was a lot of fun, and we've already discussed a little bit the idea of going again.

The Long Losts are a group that I saw at Tatsu Con (well our first in person viewing was there). We really enjoyed their music, and If you want a comparison from me as to what their music sounds like, the closest group I can think of that I might have shared in the past would be Creature Feature. It was exciting to see them perform again. www.thelonglosts.com

Jess-O-Lantern was completely new to us, but her music did not disappoint. It had more of a lighter feel to it, but I've really come to like a few of the songs on her album a lot. I'm quite partial to "Lost, boy". You can check out her music on Band camp ^_^ jess-o-lantern.bandcamp.com

Karnevil was a performance group that does a variety of side show type things. (I think I missed most of this, but I got to hear them discuss their acts) You can get a better handle on them on their website www.karnevil.net

Night Gallery was impressive also. The band members are super nice, and they give the best explanations when it comes to describing their music. You can see more info about them and get a feel from them off their website www.nightgallery.us

Gah I know I'm forgetting something. But all in all it was a wonderful weekend. Full of entertainment and interesting costumes and artistic accessories to enjoy. There was so much to see, and I didn't really take as many pictures as I should have. That's my one regret, but the memories are great <3.

Music Monday - October Holiday 1

So this coming weekend is Halloween in the Catskills! I'm excited, though am missing a lot of the fun am used to. (Not going to be able to volunteer at the Halloween event at the Dunkirk Conference Center, and we always look forward to that... then there's the Halloween parties and events....) But it's hard when everyone overlaps dates. But I can still celebrate now with music. So let's see what we've got to listen to this week... Must be something fun and interesting...I'm so glad that it's October!!!

Halloween Hootananny Band : I Was A Teenage Werewolf

Garfield : What Should I Be?

The Long Losts - To Be Like Lily

(Can't wait to see this group at the event <3<3)

DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince - Nightmare On My Street

Elvira - Haunted House

Update (yeah... I know it's not the same as creative Content)

So things have been a little crazy here where I am. It's not the same as it usually would be in October. But we're trying to get it all sorted. I've got a lot of things on my plate and it's getting more complicated when it comes to sorting it all out to make it manageable.

In the long run I feel like my creativity has been stifled for a long time, which is part of hwy I haven't been writing or creating anything new. I haven't been drawing. I haven't been coloring. I haven't been creative at all. But for now maybe that's alright. It takes time to get things straightened out.

It's not something that I can explain right now. But I'll be working on something sometimes soon. Sorry ~_~

Personal Update (not that you want to know)

Sometimes being human is a complicated thing. We get sick, we fall apart, and sometimes we need time to recuperate. Now we're not always given the time we need to do this, so we should each try to do this in the way we find it at least somewhat soothing.

I've actually been given two medications that are helping with new symptoms that I developed this month. Turns out that due to the extreme dry, hot summer we've been having allergens that normally wouldn't bother me are at much higher levels. which means, shockingly I'm allergic to something. Not sure what, but it was getting really ugly last week. So after a week I voluntarily went to see the doctor who informed me about the allergens and that he thinks I have asthma.

Still not sure what's up with my head though to be honest. But I'm working on finding that out still. I've been discouraged today though because I kept calling one of the offices to try and schedule an appointment and they hung up on me multiple times. Which doesn't really make me feel like a very happy person. It also doesn't make me want to go in to see them very much either. But eventually I will have to.

I haven't been gaming much, and I'm still trying to get onto my computer enough to actually do something. I haven't been able to focus on the screen long enough to do any art, and it's very frustrating because there's a high number of things I'd still like to do and I'm unable to do them because I can't look at the screen long enough. Which leaves me feeling frustrated because I should have some things finished by now.

I hate not finishing things that I started and was happy with. It sucks to be  like this.

Anyway, I'll try to write again soon, thanks for understanding.

August means Summer's Ending

Well August does mean that summer is almost over here where I am. So I thought I'd share some pictures from instagram that I think really sum up the way summer has been so far. I love how some instagram photographers share some gorgeous shots that can help sum up the sweltering summer.

Love these shots for summing it up though. If I was able to focus better I'd try to explain why I picked each one.... but feel free to guess....

やっとこいつに会えました☻ 口開けてるの見たかったなぁ☹ 旭川暑すぎた… #夏期休暇#9連休 #hokkaido#旭川#旭山動物園#zoo #かば#もののけ #もののけ姫みたばかりだから#影響された #数いる動物の中からかばを選ぶとゆうこのセンス

A photo posted by あづさ (@adu_1105) on Aug 8, 2016 at 6:25pm PDT

Guess who's back?!?! Details at Kdka.com on where you can see a bigger and better version of the #giantrubberduck

A photo posted by CBS Pittsburgh (KDKA) (@cbspittsburgh) on May 13, 2016 at 10:23am PDT

Wow 💙💙💙 #helooksamazing#beauty#ocean#merman#onewithnature#underwater#blue#sealife#schön#meinfreund#magical

A photo posted by Anna Gee (@supertruffle4) on Aug 8, 2016 at 10:59am PDT

Post-vacation comedown. Until next time, OBX. #gothbeach

A photo posted by Blade (@likeaknife) on Aug 7, 2016 at 3:26pm PDT

when you are death and the weather is the same #heatwave #nyc #gothbeach #deathsand #laplayadelamuerte 💀

A photo posted by alyseeeeeeeeeeee (@alyseeeeeeeeeeee) on Jul 27, 2016 at 5:28am PDT

Just Visiting : Sterling Renaissance Festival 40th year

I know in the past I have posted about the Sterling Renaissance Festival. But every year that we go there is always something new, as well as a number of wonderful things to enjoy.

This year was a bit different than the years in the past, and we didn't really have a set plan when it came to what we were going to be doing at the Sterling Renaissance Festival. And since we had a number of first timers with us we had to be a bit selective when it came to what we were going to go see.

We attended the Celtic/Highland themed weekend. Partly because part of our group was off work that day and not the next, but also because we enjoy the Celtic theme. While it's not pervasive to the festival, we do get to enjoy nods to the different ideas the theme makes available to both the artisans and the actors.

With that in mind, I'll admit that 2 of the new people that went with us to the festival were my parents. I personally selected a show that I thought they would enjoy, based on the fact that the act itself made me think of my father the first time that I saw it. The Rat Show, or Emyrs Fleet. It showcases a number of jokes that are kid friendly, and it's a great show to relax at. The humor is generally classic, and didn't require anyone to think too much.

We also attended the more bawdy shows, as they are the ones that our group tends to favor. As always, they did not disappoint. They gave gleeful moments of risque comments and made people think about things that in everyday life, we tend to treat as taboo.

One of our favorites is Arthur Greenleaf Holmes. We've been going to see him recite his poetry at the fair.... I almost think since the very first time we went to the faire. This was my boyfriends first time getting to hear the poets work though, and I don't believe he felt any worse for the wear from it. In fact he seemed to enjoy the creative imagery used during the reading. But this is not a family show, and to be honest we like it this way. I don't think we've ever seen one of his readings that wasn't crowded.

My mother on the other hand found the Bastard Monks to be amusing. Their act has a more... old school comedy feel to it. Base jokes at time, crude humor, and audience involvement. They make people laugh, as well as let them think about the story they're presenting. NOT a show for children.

We also had the pleasure to hear two Filthy Irish Stories(plus a few shorter ones based on the amount of time that was left). These  stories prey upon the adolescent idea that some words are inappropriate to say. Also it seems to amuse everyone because there are a lot more ways to make something sound dirty than many realize. They pleased the crowd leading to laughter and applause, as always a great time. Not for children, for adult consumption.

One of the newer shows that we had the pleasure to see was the Clan Tynker Circus. To be honest this is an act that I fell in love with, even though we only had a chance to see it once. The music was played live, the costumes were gorgeous, and the performers were absolutely amazing. Serendipity was gorgeous, though silent but it intrigued some of our group as it's not something that you see anymore. This isn't bias though, the whole group displayed an array of talents that impressed me and made me wish that my nephew had been there to see them.

All in all though everyone who attended for the first time had a great time and has already stated interest in attending in the future. In fact some of them are talking about going back this weekend for the pirate themed weekend. But we'll see.

Check out their website to find out more : Sterling Renaissance Festival

Another Personal Update

Now for those of you who might be wondering what the results were the other day. I'm going to try and give you an explanation.

Seeing the doctor really was not a fun experience for me for a number of reasons. But now that the first step into that uncomfortable territory has been taken, maybe something good will come of it. Not that I really understand what the results of the appointment were. I ended up with 5 referrals for other doctors. Which seems like a lot I suppose.

But then, if it's what it takes to get everything straightened out... maybe it will be ok.

I don't have anything confirmed just yet. Except for that I either have anxiety issues or panic attacks. I have to see someone else to find out which it actually is. The fact that my actual reactions to stressing factors are the same as allergic reactions doesn't help. Until I see a few more of the doctors I won't know for sure.

In any case, that's basically how that went. Then for 2 weeks I tried the day shift at work. I don't know if it is really going to be my type of thing ever. But I tried it, and that is ok. All you have to do is give something a chance.

There's a number of other chaotic things happening in my life currently as well. But for now it's going to have to stay unknown. I'm not really comfortable or free to discuss it.

All shall be as it shall be, so there is no reason to be upset about things I cannot change.

I did manage to finish a new jewelry piece though. So I'm quite happy about that. I tried some new things on it, and it didn't turn out half bad. I used quartz, glass, metal, feathers, threads, and nylon cording. It took me a number of days to be able to complete. But I do believe that it was worth how long it took me to be able to find the right stones. The stone chips gave me a bit of trouble. It was a bit difficult to locate clear quartz, I ended up with yellowed chips the first time and they simply wouldn't do.

In any case that's about the only thing that I have to discuss that's positive currently. I am still meaning to get back into a normal order. But there's no rush currently. I don't think anyone has noticed or is worried about the sparseness of posts. But it will be changing eventually. I hope.

Personal Update (In Case You Were Wondering)

I'm sure most people really don't care why I haven't been writing. But for the few that are curious or worried this is an update to fill you in on why I've been mostly silent of late. If you're not, that's alright, just let me get some of this off my chest anyway.

I've been feeling sick for around 2 months now. At first I was blaming it on the strange weather patterns we had been having here in WNY, but now I'm not so sure. Now I'm trying to figure out exactly how you go about getting a doctor visit, and am not really a fan of the idea. I've never really been fond of doctors, and given my family history there's a large number of reasons to want to avoid them.

Some of my problems include but are not limited to : light sensitivity, dizziness, various pain that doesn't go away with the use of pain killers, and a few other things. I have been informed by a few of my friends that they never would have let it go as long as I have, but sometimes it's better not to worry about something.

Well... I do worry. But if I hurt at least I know I'm still able to feel something.

The real reason that I'm trying to get it sorted out though is because it's starting to affect my ability to do things. Prime example, it's difficult to look at the computer screen so I've simply been avoiding using it on the most part.

Then there's the other problems that have been coming up. Both of my parents have been having a million doctors visits, my dad is supposed to have his third hernia surgery (I think he said it's his third). Anyway they cancelled it last week because the insurance was giving the doctors the run around about one of the tests that they wanted him to have. Apparently they were worried about being sued if something went wrong during the surgery due to a lack of whatever information the test provides.

One of my brothers is getting married in a little less than 2 months. So that's a whole different kind of problem. Mainly because I don't know what to get for them, and I have no idea where I fit into the occasion anyway. Family functions are kind of uncomfortable for me. But I won't get into why. They simply are.

So the main problem as far as writing and putting anything together here has been my inability to focus on the screen for lengths of time. I don't have the focus.

And I really don't feel like I have anything positive to tell. Sorry.

April means Spring

Spring means Butterflies.

At least here where I am. People associate butterflies with the warmer weather and the flowers that are starting to come up from under the ground. So today I'd like to share some lovely butterflies with you from *gasp* instagram.

A photo posted by Hamza Rayan (@ryanth3li0n) on Mar 29, 2016 at 7:22pm PDT

A photo posted by Sarah Folts → TheButterflyBabe (@butterflybabegallery) on Mar 6, 2016 at 9:48am PST

A photo posted by Rayanne (@rayannek95) on Apr 1, 2016 at 10:13am PDT

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A photo posted by Joan Calderon (@joantatt2) on Apr 1, 2016 at 9:32am PDT

But yeah, these are some of the great butterflies that I saw today/recently that I thought I would share with you since I know we're all looking forward to warmer weather.

Misery loves company

I know that I haven't been writing anything of late. I haven't even been picking out songs to make lists. I'm uninspired, miserable, and quite honestly I don't know why I should bother. I'm tired of the life I live, and I am finding that the point of it is no longer visible.

I'm not sure what I want to do, but I do know what I wish I could do. I wish I could give up. I'm tired of being the person that I am and I want to be someone else and I wish that I could enjoy things again. But I can't.

Anytime I even start to feel happy other people come along and crush that feeling.

they make me feel guilty for trying to be happy.

I wish I could be happy again ~_~

anyway yeah so much for an update.

I'll try to actually get something written next week. I'm really trying. I just don't really know why I bother. I loved writing, but I have nothing good to write about anymore. Maybe that's the problem, all the negativity is stifling my creative juices.

but hey... let's go with it, right?

A photo posted by Boutique Seek Online (@boutiqueseekonline) on Apr 1, 2016 at 10:17am PDT