My Color is Blue

 I thought that today I would share something, a little more personal than most of the posts that you've seen lately. I thought I would share a poem I wrote, just.... to break the ice a bit.

I hope the world is treating you better than it is treating me.

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My Color is Blue 

I wear Black,
    'though my color is blue
I wear black and disappear
    hanging in shadows
            just out of view
I keep my head low,
    and avoid offense.
I wear Black,
    'though my color is blue.
Red ruts down my cheeks,
    eyes burning from tears.
It's safer to hide,
     from their unknown fears.
My friends are green, red, yellow and orange
     vibrant and joyful together.
But apart we wear black,
    Our true colors hidden below.
Knowing that our truths 
    need to be safe beneath shadow.
We've seen what truth gets us,
    it's not always good.
I wear black,
    'though my color is blue.

(C) KMB2021

Movie Collection Update : More Disney?

 I know Mondays are usually for music, but I don't really have the energy to try and make a music post currently. So instead I am just going to make this post about some of the movies I have to add to the movie list. I haven't updated it in months, and at one point we hit a thrift store that had some fgood selections. (That and I bumped into some good sales)

So today I'll just make a note saying that I did add some more Disney movies to my collection. Which is never a bad thing. It's always good to have something simple and fun to watch.

Finding Nemo
G-Force
Into The woods
Jake and The Neverland Pirates Peter Pan Returns
The Many Adventures of Winnie The Pooh
Meet The Robinsons
Monsters,INC.
The Muppets (Disney)
Toy Story 3
Wreck-It Ralph

Veterans Day

 

Mitch Rossell - A Soldier's Memoir

Music Monday : More Time

 I need to start making more time for myself. Lately the only things I've been doing is work related. I've also started seeing the doctors again due to the issues I'm having with my health. I'm falling over more than before, and my vision is getting problematic now.

With that admitted, I'm sorry I haven't written anything in a long while. I know I want to, but my anxiety and depression haven't been making it an easy task to take up. And to top it all off, the world is full of uncertainty.

People are still getting covid. It's still moving faster than anyone would call ideal. 

Make time to see the people you care about. Make time to pause and look at the world around you. Make time to do something that makes you happy.

Music Monday : Happy Horrors

  I really am glad to have made it to October. It felt like we were never going to make it. While there are a number of things that may seem to be better, there's still so much to overcome.

Concrete Blonde - Ghost Of a Texas Ladies Man

Siouxsie And The Banshees - Halloween

The Men That Will Not Be Blamed For Nothing - This House Is Not Haunted

Georgi Kay - Scary People

Nifty Mystery Classics Movie Collection Additions

 So this is a different post than the usual sort of post about movies. Boo Boo found a box set of 50 mystery movies and bought it to add to our collection. I say "our" because between the two of us we have a rather extensive library, even though we don't actually have them combined currently.

He admitted that it's partly because I actually update my film ledger on a more regular basis.  Which I do. I try to make sure I keep it up to date to reduce the possibility of double purchases. Yet even with the list I on occasion make mistakes. But hey, no one is perfect.

In any case, below is the list of movies in the set.

Algiers
Bulldog Drummond Comes Back
Bulldog Drummond Escapes
Bulldog Drummond in Africa
Bulldog Drummond sPeril
Bulldog Drummond's Revenge
Bulldog Drummond s Secret Police
The Death Kiss
Detour
Dick Tracy Detective
Dick Tracy Meets Gruesome
Dick Tracy vs. Cueball
Dressed to Kill
Eyes in the Night
Fog Island
Great Guy
The Green Glove
He Walked By Night
Impact
Jigsaw
Kansas City Confidential
The Kennel Murder Case
The Man on the Eiffel Tower
Midnight Manhunt
The Moonstone
Mr. Moto s Last Warning
Mr. Wong Detective
Murder at the Baskervilles
Murder at Midnight
Murder By Television
Murder With Pictures
Mystery Liner
The Mysterious Mr. Wong
Nancy Drew: Reporter
Quicksand
Scarlet Street
The Second Woman
The Shadow Strikes
The Shadow: International Crime
Sherlock Holmes and the Secret Weapon
The Sign of Four
The Stranger
A Study in Scarlet
Suddenly
Terror By Night
They Made Me A Criminal
Too Late for Tears
Topper Returns
The Triumph of Sherlock Holmes
The Woman in Green

Music Monday : Is this thing still on?

There's been a lot going on, most of which I can't talk about. But that's ok I guess. Today I'm going to get my vaccine shot. I've talked to a few different people, and there's a variance in opinion about whether or not I should get one. Personally, I feel that it's my responsibility to at least try to make sure I won't get other people sick. And after having had Covid-19, I really don't want to have it again.

Other than that, the past weekend was fairly quiet. 

Trace Adkins : Arlington

SSgt. Barry Sadler : The Ballad Of The Green Berets

The Chicks : Travelin' Soldier

Rylee Preston : Soldiers Light

Justin Moore : The Ones That Didn’t Make It Back Home

Movie Mania (Another Collection Update!)

There's still movies out there I haven't found yet. But here's the list of the most recent additions since the last one. It feels like this month has been a very quick acquisition period. It's more that the weather has gotten warm and we've been going out a little more, and I've been able to find some different films that I didn't already have. And they were movies (some of them) I was looking for. I haven't added them to the full list yet, but at least they're here for reference.

A Pink Christmas
Adventures of a Teenage Dragonslayer
The Adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad
After The Wizard
Alice of Wonderland in Paris
An American Tail
Babes in Toyland
Balto
Blizzard
Brother Bear
Cartoon Craze presents Sing A-longs
Casper and Friends Trick Or Treat Classic Collection Volume 1
Cats Don't Dance
Christmas Carol The Movie
The Country Bears
The Curious Adventures of Mr. Wonderbird
The Good Dinosaur
Gulliver's Travel
The Haunted Pumpkin of Sleepy Hollow
High Voltage
Jumanji The Complete Animated Series
The King and I
The Land Before Time
The Life & Adventures of Santa Claus
Lil Abner
The Lion King 1 1/2
The Magic Voyage
Monster High 13 Wishes
My Little Pony Friendship is Magic Pony Trick or Treat
On The Line
Petticoat Junction & Friends Collection
Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Man's Chest
Prancer
Prince Valiant 16 complete Episodes
The Princess and the Frog
Rover Dangerfield
Rush Zone Season of the Guardians Volume 1
Sherlock Holmes The Sign of the Four (animated)
Thumbelina
Three Amigos
Veep The Complete First Season
The Very Best of Sabrina The Animated Series
We're Back!

More "New" Movies

Over the weekend we went galivanting and searched for treasures. I'm slowly working on ccollecting small things for a side project. But we will get there when we get there. I really need to get my act together and get all the new videos added to the library listing so I don't forget what I have, I'll get there one of these days.

Taz-Mania Season 1 part 1
Taz-Mania Season 1 Part 2



Ghost Hunters The Complete First Season


Rainbow Brite Special Collectors Edition
(13 episode tv)(need to find Rainbow Brite and The Star Stealer)


Rock-A-Doodle

Film Collection Additions

 I haven't done an update recently to add my newer film finds. I think there are a few more hanging around here that I  haven't added yet, but they can wait for a future update.

I managed to find some animation that I didn't have, but wanted. So that's always a nice thing. When I get home from work I'll merge this list into the actual film list page for referencing when  I am out and about. It really does help knowing what I do have. The list generally helps me avoid duplicate purchases.

A Bug's Life
A Very Barry Christmas (claymation?)
AAAHH!!! Real Monsters Season 2
The Adventures of Pinocchio
Anastasia
The Angry Beavers Seasons1 & 2
Barbie In a Christmas Carol
Batman Ninja
Beauty and the Beast (not Disney live action 2014)
Being Human Complete First Season (US version)
The Black Rider Revelation Road
The CareBears Big Wish Movie
DC SuperHero Girls Legends of Atlantis
Edward Scissorhands
Frankenweenie
Ghost Stories
Gwen
Justice League The New Frontier
The Lego Batman Movie
Munster, Go Home!
The Munsters' Revenge
The Secret of Nimh
Sonic The Hedgehog Super Sonic
The Steam Engines of Oz
Taboo Season 1
The Wild Thornberrys Season 1
You've Got Mail

Music Monday : Ugh, it's Monday?

 I can tell  you before I even get started today, that this week is going to be a rough one. But that doesn't mean we can't pretend that there will be some good in it. The only question being, what good will there be?

I've already got my first sunburn of the year. I'm slowly working my way up to full lobster, but luckily I'm getting some hats that will help keep me from burning my scalp further. I made the poor life choice of putting my hair up in cute buns, which left my scalp.... rather open to the sun. So... oops.

Bonnie Mckee : A Voice That Carries

Digital Daggers : The Devil Within

Reel Big Fish : Somebody Hates Me

Wonder Villains : TV

Jem : You Will Make It

Enjoying Cookie Cutter Creativity

 I spent a few minutes exploring https://picrew.me/ recently. It was a lot of fun to just play with some of the stacking options in their various image generators. The artists who create all the variants are amazing! I'll probably play with it again in the not too distant future.

Unfortunately I failed to remember to grab links to each of the different image creators. But there are SO MANY to explore. Next time I will make sure to get a link to the individual ones.

Yes, I know I haven't been posting regularly. I know I keep saying that I will. I'm struggling lately with life in general. I know a lot of other people are too, so I haven't complained. But yeah, it will get better eventually. That's what I keep telling myself.

Irregular Update

    I know that things have gotten rally sparse around here. The problem is I have run out of good things to talk about. Which I am sure is a sentiment a lot of you understand.

    The only good news I personally have to offer is that I survived having Covid-19. I tried so hard to avoid contracting it. I've followed as many of the rules as I could, and I feel like I've missed out on a lot because of them. But I still got sick. I know that there's more good to come from the protocols, but right now I seriously have trouble seeing it.

My daily life feels.... redundant. My job.... well.... it's a job. They're not supposed to be fun. But I wish that I didn't feel trapped. I wish that it paid enough so that I was able to do more. But it doesn't, and it never will. On top of that, they're expecting more than what they're giving us time for. So it's highly stressful, not that anyone cares.

I spent 2 hours crying today before going to work. The only thing I think I can blame it on is frustration. I had a little bit of hope, but it feels stupid to hope at all now.

There's not much good to talk about other than that I have survived having covid-19. So... yay?

A piece of art I did a million years ago of my dnd character Dyre Drake

I'm not sure how to explain what I'm feeling. 

Lost? 

Sad? 

Afraid?

Does it really matter in the end?

Nothing is making any sense. 

I feel as though there's nothing worth doing anymore.

Is there a validity in breathing?

Is there a point to all of this?

Acceptance of the Unavoidable

 I am truly at a loss to explain how I feel of late. I have always had good intentions, and the desire to keep going. But it's hard to move forward when the roots that I had in my life are slowly dying off. I know that there is no one to blame but time itself. We all pass on eventually, but accepting this isn't something that many enjoy.

Covid 19, has been in our lives actively for over a year now. It's difficult to find folks now that haven't been touched by it's shadow. I still feel sad when I hear someone say that they don't know anyone who has died, so why is it different than anything else. It's different because the majority of people in the world don't have an immunity for this particular type of virus. Even the people that have had the unfortunate run in with the virus, can catch the same virus more than once.

Now it is mutating, and that's a terrifying reality we all have to accept. Many people do not enjoy wearing the face masks in public, but the truth that must be admitted is that people aren't as sick as they have been in the past. The common colds and common flues that are usually running rampant from late September through late April don't seem to be causing as much trouble in society.

But people don't seem to notice the good things that we have had happen. The ability to see them is harder than I'd like to admit.

Music Monday : This One's For You

 February is a rough month for a lot of people. Whether you have a lover or not, you know this to be a fact. You see the sad people posting that they wish they had someone. Or you see people posting about how much they missed a loved one that has passed. Especially this year we're feeling the fresh losses that occurred since the start of the viruses hold on civilization.

Falling in love is ridiculously important to being part of society. Love isn't easy though. It can be frustrating and that's not encouraging. Because people don't want to love. They want to be in power. They want to have power over people, not to be part of a team. When you love someone you should want to be working with them, not against them.

But it seems that a lot of people aren't under that impression. People aren't machines and they make mistakes. The things about mistakes and relationships is that you should learn from both of them.

You should learn to love someone in spite of their flaws. Love someone for everything they are, and don't be afraid to help them through their mistakes. The experiences help add value to your relationship, whether it's a lover or just a friend.

Value the people you care about.

With that said this weeks music selections are dedicated to my friends, because they love me because they want to, not because they have to. I'm grateful for it.

Cash Cash & Andy Grammer - I Found You

Pistol Annies - Bad Example

Ricky Martin - The Best Thing About Me Is You

Anthem Lights - Love You Like The Movies

JJ Heller - Meant To Be

Music Monday : Getting Back into the Swing of Things

 I can't believe how much I didn't get done last week. In fact, I got nothing done at all. BUT I did start relearning how to use photoshop. Which probably doesn't sound like much, but I used to LOVE working on creating things in the program.

Anyway, January is almost over. We've made it through the first month(just about) of 2021. I can call that progress.

I hope your week goes fabulously! I know I'm hoping for a good week myself. Here's some music to get the week started.

The Rocket Summer : Brat Pack

The Postelles - 123 Stop

The Moffatts - Bang Bang Boom

The All-American Rejects - Move Along

Jessica Simpson - I Belong To Me

On Screen : Wonder Woman 1984

 Let's be honest, the fact that theatres have been closed for a long time has been difficult on the film industry. But I'm not entirely certain what the limited release of films on online platforms is going to do to the industry as a whole. Will it force people to join the platforms? I'm not certain. Will it increase digital piracy? Not certain of that either.

Wonder Woman 1984 was originally supposed to be released in theaters. I know it should have released earlier in 2020, because at Spirit Halloween the new costumes based on the new film, were available for purchase. Which was odd considering the release of the movie had been delayed and pushed back a number of times.

The movie was good though. The imagery, the pacing, the vibrancy. It was fabulous.

And I loved that  they included so much. They give her a core. Make her "human" rather than just a "superman".

Music Monday : Quiet Day

 Getting back into this is a bit hard, but to be honest I'm starting to feel a little better. Feeling better makes it a little easier to write and think about the world and what I want. I don't really know what I want right now. But that's ok.

There's no reason that I have to know right now. Just getting through one day at a time is a start. I just hope that is enough.

I hope your week is off to a good start, and that there's a spark of magic in it.

Dodie - Cool Girl

KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See

Pink Martini - The Lemonade Song

The Cranberries - Dreams

Five For Fighting - 100 Years

Music Monday : Get back in the Swing of things

 So far 2021 has kept up with the shenanigans of it's predecessor 2020. 

I admit that I'm having trouble focusing and making words connect intelligently. My anxiety and depression haven't been playing fair. But that doesn't mean I should stop doing things that I enjoy. But I need to figure out ways to be able to do them, while not hurting myself in the process. 

But it's going to be ok.

It's a new year, and we have a lot to think about.

A new start maybe, or a resurrection of the past. I haven't decided yet. But there is enough to think about that I think I will try to keep going for now. I don't really know what else to do anymore.

Amy Martin : Raven's Wings

Woodkid : I Love You

The Krayolas : I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend

Jack Johnson : We're Going To Be Friends

Foxes : Holding On To Heaven

Music Monday : Hello 2021!

 I know very little in the world at large has changed other than the number at the end. But there is a bit of excitement at crossing over the line into another year. Ages go up, and there's a lot of unknown factors to think about.

I know  that I may sound a bit perplexed, and I am, I am having trouble staying focused. I am hoping to find a way to be better. I want to share the new year with you all. 

But right now all I can do is hope that I will have the chance to.

Lilli Furfaro - Stories