Monday, December 28, 2020

Music Monday : Last Monday of 2020

 To be fair, it felt like 2020 was never going to end. A lot of the problems that we have had this year are not going to be going away as we enter 2021, but maybe we will see some new growth or changes that may be positive. We can hope at least.

The music that I'm choosing for this week, most of it is different music that I've bumped into while listening to Spotify at work. I've added some of the songs to a playlist on there that I listen to when I can because it brings me enjoyment, and helps with my anxiety. Silly I guess, but at this point I'll take help in any form that I can get.

Anyway, I hope your week goes well, and that you are safe and healthy in the new year. 

Be You. 


Sidewalk Prophets - Smile



American Authors - Pocket Full of Gold



Michael Buble/Barenaked Ladies/Sophia Reyes - Gotta Be Patient



Jake Bugg - All I Need


Miranda Lambert - We Should Be Friends







Sunday, December 27, 2020

On Screen : Additions to The Film Library

 We've had an interesting year. This past month we did add a number of films to our personal library, and we're looking forward to watching them. Many of them aren't high grossing films, but they're things to watch and have a change of pace.

These are the new additions, which will be integrated to the film collection page when I have time to add them. An interesting mix of animation, Horror, and comedy. Definitely excited to watch some of this stuff.


A Christmas Carol (Tim Curry voicing Scrooge)
Bad Kids of Crestview Academy
Batman and Harley Quinn
Batman Under The Red Hood
The Batman VS Dracula
Beast Beneath
The Black Rider Revelation Road
Bunnicula Night of the Vegetable Season 1- Part 1
Daddy. I'm A Zombie
Devil Seed
Die
Doctor Who Deep Breath
Doctor Who Series Eight, Part One
Frankenstein (BBC)
Friday The 13th(2009)
Ghostbusters(2016)
Hidden
House Party Tonight's The Night
The Institute
Isolation
Jackals
Journey to the West The Demons Strike Back
Killer Klowns From Outer Space
Krampus The Christmas Devil
The Legend of Hallowaiian
Maneater
Men In Black
Men In Black II
Monster Family
Monster High Scaremester Collection
Mummy, I'm A Zombie
The Munsters Scary Little Christmas
Outlaws (BBC)
Parasomnia
Power House The Complete Series
Psychosis
Pulse (Kairo)
Rellik
Save Our Skins
Shuriken School The Complete Series
The Smurfs 2
The Starving Games
Top Cat The Movie
Top Dog
Weirdsville
White Chicks
Winter's Tale

Sunday, December 20, 2020

Music Monday : It's almost Over

 2020 and the holiday season are both almost over. It's been a rough year. It doesn't really look like it's going to get any better either. But what we can do is have hope that things will start to feel a little less stressful over the next few months.

I hope you're safe. I Hope you're healthy. I hope you have a reason to smile. Be safe this week and enjoy the holiday with the ones you love.

Gloria Estefan - Christmas Through Your Eyes

Dashboard Confessional - The Only Gift I Need


Muppets Christmas Carol - One More Sleep Till Christmas

Mel Blanc - The Hat I Got For Christmas is Too Big







Friday, December 11, 2020

Off The Shelf : Nice Dragons Finish Last

It's been a while since I posted a fresh book review. You've been getting a number of posts from the old blog, and while I should feel slightly sorry for that, I don't. I'm trying to keep things rolling, and it's not easy. But today we have a freshly finished read to share. So I'm tickled about that.

Nice Dragons Finish Last
by Rachel Aaron
287 Pages
(I read the digital edition)

I read this book after having it recommended to me by a friend. I've been having trouble being able to stay focused on a book long enough to finish one. Yes I've read a few short stories, but novel of any kind have been a struggle. Partially due to stress, but that's not what we're supposed to be looking at today.

This is a light read with a recommended age range of 13-18. While there are some references to adult activities, I don't feel they are so out of place to require a warning about them.

Monday, December 7, 2020

Music Monday : Holidays Already?

 Sure... Why not. There's only three Mondays before Christmas so why not. This year hasn't been spectacular in general. And to be  honest my holiday spirit has been lacking for a long time anyway. I can pretend to be happy, but that doesn't really change the way that I feel inside. But I will say I think I am working my way through some things. Because I "found" a holiday spirit. It's just... sad. 

Anyway I hope you're safe, healthy, and able to stay warm. There's only a few more weeks of 2020 left, we can get through this.


Vera Lynn : The Little Boy That Santa Claus Forgot

Merle Haggard : Lonely Night


Frank Sinatra : Whatever Happened to Christmas

Mariah Carey : Miss You Most

The Supremes : Just A Lonely Christmas

Saturday, December 5, 2020

Personal Update: Keep Hanging In There

 Let's be honest. 2020 has been awful in general. The number of people that have died over the course of this year alone, whether from Covid 19 or other causes, feels immense. In the grand scheme of things it has left me feeling insignificant, as there  seems to be very little that I can do for anyone. Which fueled my anxiety and depression into an inferno.

So for the past month or so I was trying a new medication, which only brought back symptoms I had believed were under control. Turning me even more into a blanket slug. Thankfully I stopped taking it for now, with doctor permission. I feel better than I did on that medication, But I still don't feel entirely myself again.

But I know I am not alone in feeling this way. So many other people out there are feeling.... trapped? Uncertain? Lost? 

We feel like in the grand scheme of things no one cares about what happens to us or to those around us. It's absolutely frustrating and discouraging.

But that doesn't mean we want to give up... but sometimes it feels like giving up is the only option available to us.

It's not going to be getting any easier over the coming months. In fact it will be getting more complicated. So ... remember you're not alone.

None of  us are really alone.


Monday, November 30, 2020

Music Monday : It's Been A Year

 2020 hasn't really been all that good. At least not for most people. There's no way to sugar coat it. But we've only got a few weeks left of it. There's hope on the horizon. It won't be perfect, nothing is ever going to be the same. Too much has happened to change things. And while change is inevitable, it can either be painless or... earth shattering. 

But I guess I'm just... lost. Hope you have a great week. I'm sorry I haven't been around.


Andy Grammer : Good To Be Alive


Chameleon Circuit - Blink


Halsey - You Should Be Sad


June - A Little Messed Up



Marron 5 - Memories









Wednesday, November 18, 2020

Checking In : Mental Health

 I would like to say that my time away was for amazing things. That I have returned with an immense number of things to tell you about. But the truth is hardly as interesting. Like many folks currently, I've been having a difficult time.

Yes, my time at the Halloween store was a welcome reprieve. It let me pretend for a short while that things may have been improving. But as October came to a close and the familial holidays arrive, the false hope it provided has been dashed.

I have nothing to speak about. My heart and mind are heavy with worry. Daily life is full of variables that are difficult to control. And as more people get infected with Covid 19 locally, society becomes more unstable.

There are some who claim that the virus is a hoax. I find their denial discouraging. I also find the political climate... taxing. I guess that's the best way to put it now. 

Personally, I've been  having a harder struggle with my mental health. I am worried. I am scared. I feel as though my purpose is no longer a thing. What is my purpose? Why am I here?

The stress and increase of factors at work... I don't know how to deal with it.

I did talk to my doctor who prescribed me a medication. I'm honestly... struggling more now. 

But I'm here. 

Friday, November 6, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: Good Example of Why Djinn are to be Avoided. (but still enjoyed)

It's now November, and I hate to admit this but most of the books I have in my digital queue involve Vampires, Djinn, Zombies, Werewolves, and who knows what else. Why? Because I enjoy them. Though I will admit that there is a possibility that soon I will mention some books that I own hard copy versions of. Just for a chance from the realm of digital.

Anyway, let's move on to looking at this entries read.

Tamar Black - Djinnx'd
by Nicola Rhodes
542 pages

When people think of Djinn or Genies, they generally picture Jeannie from the I Dream of Jeannie tv show, or of the large comical blue Genie from Disney's Aladdin. Or those barely there female Halloween costumes. Why is that? Well to what I have seen, Djinn don't really have a cult following or a active pop culture niche currently. Which is part of why the title of this book intrigued me.

What was it going to be about, what exactly would djinnx'd be described as through the story?

From what I can tell you without spoiling the book is that Djinnx'd can be defined as : being tricked into releasing a Djinn.

The story itself has a fast pace that rivals the pacing of the Aisling Grey, Guardian novels by Katie MacAlister. It also is similar in it's usage and detailed descriptions of different mythological beings that are used in the story. Most of the descriptions are given in a first person view, which means there are many amusing notes throughout.

For those that may be worried that the book will turn out to be nothing more than a smut story, or a trashy romance novel, get those thoughts out of your head. Why? The story stays away from romance on the most part, instead focusing more on the adventure on hand.

The story starts in the past, but most of it is written to be in modern times, so there is no need to worry about not knowing what something is. The main characters are vibrant and relatable, though some of their actions are questionable.

I would recommend this as a book for older teens and adults, not because it is overly adult in nature, but because it's voice might be difficult for younger readers to relate to. (although... the Twilight series is supposedly an adult one... but people still let kids read that, blah)

Till next time, happy reading! Oh... and feel free to leave me recommendations.

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Originally posted November 7th, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Friday, October 9, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: Vampires are the "In" Thing

We all know about the Twilight craze, and how hot vampires are in pop culture currently. So it shouldn't surprise anyone that there are a large number of romance novels being written with vampires being the hunk du jour.

It should come as no surprise that some best selling authors are getting that title by writing about beings with fangs.

Sex and the Single Vampire
by Katie MacAlister
326 pages

I have never read a Katie MacAlister book before I read this one. I will gladly say that I would be more than willing to read more of her other books in the future. (and she has more books out than I would have imagined).

This particular book is classified as a Paranormal Romance on its spine. A classification 'm not all that familiar with honestly. Why? Well, most of the books I've been reading lately are in digital format, and I classify them however their title implies them to be.

Anyway, this book is about a woman named Allie, and her trip to London. Her job sent her to London to collect proof that ghosts exist. A task that should be manageable since she's a Summoner. Technically she should be able to walk into the haunted location and summon a spirit.

But it doesn't matter what she does, the best she can d at the beginning is just a cat's ghost. The scene is very amusing, and I enjoyed most of the book's informative tone as to how things should work.

The vampire, was a bit...different than I am used to. But he at least conformed to most of the traditional standards.(Not to mention the fact that he's a writer himself.) In any case he definitely fills the main male role in well. uhm...

The plot moves quickly enough, so this book would be a decent one as a pocket read or to carry on while traveling. Especially for people who enjoy glimpses at distant locations, ghosts, and romance all in one book.

This book is more appropriate for Adults than for kids, but older teens might enjoy it as well. (I have an odd sense at times for what is considered to be adult content...but i suppose since it's labeled romance, it's safe to say it's more adult in nature than some of my other reading.)

In any case, whether you like ghosts or vampires, or adventure stories in general, this book is appealing.

You'll likely be able to find it as an eBook if you look, though mine is hard copy this time. So I can't make a recommendation this time around about how to find it ~_~

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Originally posted November 13th, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Friday, September 4, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: Learning Poetry

I happen to like a lot of different kinds of written work. As you've well noticed I'm sure if you're a regular reader, if you're not, welcome on board ^_^.

When I was in college I was introduced to something called Poetry Slams, the idea of which puzzled me slightly. Why would people be slamming poetry? And then we watched some video footage, and I was amazed! This was something new, and wonderful to me.

I was blessed to have the chance to see one of the artists perform live at my college. (And some of his work is amazing, just from a literary appreciation view, so seeing it done live and seeing what it was meant to sound like in person was great.) Today I figured that I'd start rounding this blog out, into a more cross genre creature (slowly as it may be) by adding one of his books of poetry to the mix.

What Learning Leaves
Taylor Moli
74 pages

I've had my copy of this book for 6 years. I've shared it with a few people, but it ended up in storage at one point and it recently came out. The poetry contained between the pages covers a variety of topics, but the ones that most people will relate to or understand are the ones concerning school.

"Like Lilly Like Wilson" is one of my favorite poems in the book. It looks at the way people use the word like, even when it isn't necessary. Teenagers will likely find amusement in the words, and an understanding as well. That sometimes, there's a limit.

Taylor Moli has put out more poetry since then(of course) and has his own website, If you're intrigued or even just a bit curious please head on over and take a look. http://www.taylormali.com/index1.html



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Originally posted January 3rd, 2012 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Monday, August 31, 2020

Music Monday : Better Late Than Never

 I'm sorry. I am trying to get back into routine but so far I've got nothing settled. But I will as soon as I can get one thing to be done on time.

This week will pass. Everything will be ok. Just remember it is ok. You Got this.


Bebe Rexha - I'm Gonna Show You Crazy

Elle King - Ex's and Oh's

Meghan Trainor - Credit

Maroon 5 - If I Never See Your Face Again

Katy Perry - Smile









Monday, August 24, 2020

Music Monday : Have to Start Somewhere

 I've been a bit off the past few months. There's been a heck of a lot on my mind. But from what I've been able to see of the world at large, I am not the only one. We're all dealing with a wide variety of emotions, and we all handle them differently.

I admit to having trouble handling mine in general. 

Over the past two months while there have been fewer restrictions we've been having small D&D games. Nothing that would put us at risk, but enough social interaction that I'm not going out of my mind as badly as I have been.

But I'm still losing my mind. There are so many variables that I can't control, regardless of what I try. There's no way to control everything.

But we'll be fine. It's always going to be fine. That's all we can hope for. 

So how about some music, a bit late, I know. But I have to try and get back some normalcy now.

Margaret Whiting & Jimmy Wakely : Slipping Around

Dolly Parton : 9 to 5

The Go-Go's : We Got The Beat

Johnny Cash : Fool's Hall Of Fame

Cheers : Black Denim Trousers and Motorcycle Boots

Sunday, August 23, 2020

What's on Screen : Adding To My Collection

 I know I haven't really posted about what I've been watching lately. That's partially because I haven't been watching much. I've been having trouble focusing. BUT! I have gotten a few additions to my film collection recently. So I figured I would just add them to my movie list while also acknowledging their newness.

There's a variety of choices, animation as well as live films. I'm so excited to get to watch another holiday special about Anytown. Plus it's always nice to expand the collection. Do you have any recommendations for things I may want to add in the future?

Carrie

The First Season of Get Shorty
The Return of the Living Dead

The Gift of Winter

Howard Lovecraft and the Undersea Kingdom
Snoopy, Come Home
A Boy Named Charlie Brown

Seventh Season of 'Allo 'Allo!

Friday, August 14, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited:Not for the General Audience

Now I know my reading habits seem to be rather, sporadic. I don't read just one genre, and I don't stick to certain lengths or story types. That would make reading boring.

Anyway, today's recommended stories are more for adults than for younger readers. I do apologize if you were looking forward to hearing about something for kids today, but we'll do a post just for them soon.
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Cinderella's Wedding Night
by Tony Murfin
16 pages

This story looks at something that is normally left out of the old fairytale of Cinderella. It goes over a lot in it's short number of pages, and makes the story feel that much more grown up.

You get a glimpse at aristocracy, not necessarily in a good light. The author reveals odd desires from the Prince. And just what did happen to that glass slipper in the end? This is the story that explains one possible outcome.

Not intended for young readers at all. High School age readers, might be ok, but I strongly recommend that if you do let youth read this you read it as well.
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The Pause Ghost
by Joshua Scribner
30 pages

This is the only story in todays post that isn't sexual in nature. I know that means I should have saved it for a different day all together, but It's nice to have something here for readers that don't like smut. (no the other stories aren't THAT bad, but I'm rationalizing the inclusion of this story.)

This story takes you into a home, where there are 2 boys. We get to see their family christmas, as well as their favorite present, a casette playing stereo. But there's a problem with it, it pauses itself while they sleep.

This story is interesting because it gives a quick glimpse at family dynamics, as well as how family members deal with tragedies. Can be read by young adult readers without fear of them being traumatized. Not sure about younger readers though.
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A Twisted Bard's Tale
by Selena Kitt
36 pages

This story is a fresh look at the story of Romeo and Juliet. The author reveals her impression of what may have started the families to feuding together. And rather than spoil the reason, I will simply say that it had nothing to do with death.

This story is not for young readers, and a knowledge of the basic plotline of Romeo and Juliet is recommended as it will give some depth to the story that on it's own it would likely lack.

I classify it as adult because of it's content. I would also classify it as alternative lifestyle literature because of the type of sexual content included. This is not a bad thing, but just a heads up for those that prefer the writings of Shakespeare.
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Toe Tag
by Jr. Pau Bens Paul G.
40 pages

I don't remember this story actually being 40 pages long when I read it, but that's what it's telling me it is now. This story isn't intended for people with weaker stomachs. Not because it is gory, but because there are a few moments that might not be suitable for all readers.

The story itself is about a man that works at a shoe store, and his view on other peoples feet. Mind you as the story progresses we learn just how far he'll go to find the perfect pair of feet.

I would classify this as adult. There are hints at a fetish(ok strong hints). I dislike that it makes the fetish out to be 'bad' but, it's the Authors Story, not mine.
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Now remember if you read any of these, that some of them have a different feel than the fluffy stories i read frequently. But don't consider that a bad thing.

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Originally posted November 10th, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

Checking In : Around But Not

I've been working different hours at work. Which leaves me tired when I get home, so I haven't been doing a lot online or on the computer in general.I miss my friends though. I also miss having moments to go and do fun things.

But there aren't very many things out there to do. The current virus is not festive in anyway, and most of us would like to stay healthy. It's alright to miss the things that you were hoping to do though. It's fair enough to mourn the normalcy you knew before.

Normal is never going to be the same for us in our lifetime. The changes that are happening are more far reaching than they would have been. But there's no way to change the things that have been. We have to live with the things that are now.

We should turn to the arts to help fill the void though. Don't let your lives become empty a devoid of the things that bring joy into your life. Music, movies, and various art can help offer your mind things to mull over something that isn't fear.

We shouldn't be afraid of living now. It's never going to be the same, our hopes and dreams of the future need to change. It is not going to be easy to go forward. There is a sadness in the unknown, the dreams I've had in my past are dashed. There aren't many things left for me to do that could make things better.

It's terrifying. It's absolutely terrifying to be in a place where the future is void. I don't know what there is to hope for anymore. I want to have hope, I want a reason to hang in here. I'm trying so very hard not to let the void get the better of me.

But it's not as easy to do as some want to believe. I want to be careful. I want to be ... here?

But why?

I miss having a reason.

I am so tired.

Exhausted.

Life is exhausting. 

Tuesday, July 28, 2020

Music Monday (late) : Looking For Someone

We all have those moments when we don't know what to do anymore. There's an emptiness somewhere inside that we are hoping to fill, but nothing seems to fit. Maybe you're feeling hollow, or lost, or... afraid. But it will be ok. Don't give up, take a step forward, or a few steps back, reassess what you are doing. It may not be what you hoped for, but that doesn't mean that giving up is going to help right now.

Giving up is the last thing that we should be doing right now. Even if all you do is start with the people and places around you, there are things you can influence.

Don't let your current problems stop you from trying to move forward. Take each day as a new chance to go forward, and learn from the things troubling you. 

You can do it.

Lola Blanc : Angry Too


Monday, July 20, 2020

Music Monday : Something a Little Different

To be perfectly honest, I haven't been writing much because I don't have much to write about. Life is going on as it can, though there are a number of changes since Corona has been on the stage. Work itself is a bit frustrating, but my physical health today actually forced me to stay home. (High pain level = a big nope as far as going in)

But how about some music? Today am sharing some I found while going down the youtube rabbit hole last week. Not all of it is similar to the types of music you may be accustomed to seeing me share. 

I hope your Monday went better than mine.

The Regrettes : I Love Us

Princess Nokia : Sugar Honey Iced Tea

She & Him : I Could've Been Your Girl

Malaynah : Wait A Minute

Snow Tha Produce : Gaslight

Friday, July 10, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: Did The Good Old Boy Do It?

When you look at a books title, sometimes you get an image in your head that is impossible to shake. That's what happened when I read the title of this piece. It didn't matter how the Author kept describing "Bubba" to look, I kept seeing him as one of my little brothers.

Now isn't that a scary thought?

Bubba and the Dead Woman
by C.L. Bevill
526 pages

Bubba and The Dead Woman, doesn't seem to be a serious story as you start to read it. The writing is stylistic, and light in nature. But that light nature, doesn't change the fact that it is very descriptive. It is both descriptive, effective, and a hell of a lot of fun.

This book is a murder mystery, revolving around an old plantation. There are gold diggers, and liars, and to be plain honest, the murderer was the last person that I expected it to be. There are shotguns, hunting dogs, and cowboy hats. As well as simple diner food.

They mention things that are plausible. Magazine articles that may have been written, as well as the kind of reactions that some stories can have on people. (Let's say they think there's gold buried in the back yard, of course they'll start digging holes in it when you're not looking.)

yes this story would be a good read for a male or female audience, even though there are some slightly romantic moments. I'm sure that given the way that the story is written, the male audience would easily overlook the fluffy lovey notes.

I got my copy from the B & N Nook bookstore for free. But what is even better, it has a lend me option, so if one of my friends wanted to read it, I can loan it to them. The LendMe option is available on a lot more eBooks than I realized, which is nice for those times when a book is difficult to find, or the price has changed, or maybe a friend isn't sure they want to commit to the book yet or not.

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Originally posted November 10th, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

What do you want?

I know it may seem like I've been struggling for a while. I honestly have been. Emotionally, physically, and a few other ways I've been wrung tight and all the drops have been drained until I'm dry as a bone and empty. But I'm still trying to keep going.

What do  you want to see?

Why are you here?

What do you think I should do?

Should I give in?

Do you want to see more art?

My thoughts about movies or music?

Why are you still here?

Why am I still here?

I just... I don't know why I'm doing this anymore. Let alone why I'm trying to hang on.

Give me some help here...

Emotionally I'm backed into a corner.

My creativity is almost non-existent.

But I'm honestly... scared that if I have nothing to do at all I'll be lost. 

I want to have something to do.

I need something.

But I don't know what. 

Is there anything to help this?

Is anyone out there?




Friday, June 19, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: Treasured Tale of Far Away

We all run into different books as we go along over time. Sometimes a book is so sad that it clings to your memories. For me one example of that is the book Today's Post is about.

The Little Prince
by Antoine De Saint Exupery
111 pages

The author wrote and illustrated this book for the reader to enjoy. And the first thing you find when you open it is that is dedicated to a good friend, but not as he was at the time, as he was when he was a child.

That tells you a lot about the writer in my opinion. For a writer to care about a friend so dearly, but to acknowledge that children might find offense in his choice to dedicate it to an adult is charming.

As you read the story you find out various things, both about the Little Prince, but also about the narrator. They both have a lot to teach each other, even the one answers questions more often than the other.

As charming and sad as some parts of the tale are, there are some things young readers may not understand. Adults that indulge in the piece, after reading it in the past, may find more in it than they had in the past.

There's something sweet about a Little Prince that watches over a flower, and wants a sheep. But as in all things mortality is questioned, and there is no answer given for certain in the end, but your given the choice to decide the outcome yourself.

For sometimes the most unusual meetings are the ones that leave a lasting impression.

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Originally Posted November 28, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

It's not Monday, but Why not?

Let me be honest. Yesterday I had good intentions to start getting a schedule back on track. That kind of didn't  happen though because I went to work (late>.> long story), and came home and basically passed out. was I overtired? I don't know. But It's kind of a thing that happens sometimes. I should be used to it by now.

Anyways, I will say wearing my mask for a full work day (which isn't even that long for me) is going to take some getting accustomed to. But it is something that needs to be done in order to keep myself and other safe.

All in all I just want to say if you're having a hard week I'm sorry. I hope that it gets better. Make sure you eat some food. Drink water. Stay hydrated. Wear your mask when you go out. Be safe. Call someone if you have a chance, because people need checked on now and then especially now.

I am trying to get myself resorted and reorganized. There's just so much going on, and yet nothing going on at the same time. Most events I would usually attend during the year have already been cancelled. So I'm regrouping and trying to decide the best ways to do so. I miss everyone like crazy though.

Most important thing though : BE SAFE.

Andy Grammer : Good To Be Alive

Demi Lovato : I Love Me

Halsey : You Should Be Sad

Lola Blanc : The Magic

Orla Gartland : Did it to Myself 

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Checking In

So I have basically come to the conclusion that my lack of posting is bothering some people. But there's reasons for it, and It's not all... good or bad. The reasons are what they are. But basically the question is what to say.

Is there anything to say that hasn't been said by someone else at this point in the "game". I say game because there's not really a word I feel that really encompasses everything as a whole and the way people are reacting.

I see a lot of positive ....energy? But it won't matter if it doesn't actually change anything for the better.

But I lack the gumption or eloquence to say anything in a way to truly express what I feel. But my anxiety and depression are not being my friends currently.

But I'm here. Sort of? That's something I suppose.

In any case. Drink water. Eat something. Talk to someone. 



 



Thursday, May 28, 2020

Hiding In Fiction


Sometimes ignoring reality can be a good thing. But even fiction is no longer enough to hide within. Especially now. Nothing seems  to be the same and there's nothing to use as a gauge to decide what to do next. At least I can play dress up in Second life still.



Skin : =-F'd Up-= Martini - Goth
Eyes & Makeup: [Void ] [V] Snowflake (Constricted)-- White --Eyes
                            
Hair : Raven Bell - Unbriel Hair [Crystal]
Mesh Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara V5.1
Shape: My Own

Clothes & Accessories:  {MV] Malfean Visions Delirium Heels Gunmetal RARE
CUREMORE/Love Thief/ Bow&Arrow- Silver\
CUREMORE/Love Thief/ Goddess Tiara/ White
Lassitude & ennuni Seraphim wings- black dipped RARE
[Since 1975] GivemeloveArrow (gold/mouth)
Luas Ninette Dress RARE
                       

- I did use the Baked on Mesh option. My Head is my own head. So I know the skin may not have appliers? Not sure how that all works. ^_^

Monday, May 25, 2020

Music Monday : I've been Off Track

I know I haven't been posting as much as I would like to. I could try to come up with some excuse. Or I could be honest and tell a long story about everything that's been going on. But what's the point? Everyone is having a hard time right now, and comparing troubles isn't going to help anyone.

But we've made it through this month just about. That's something to celebrate right? All we can do is hope for good things to come. I hope you're all safe and that you're able to stay that way.

Alanis Morisette : Reasons I Drink

The Wrecks : Fvck Somebody

Barbara Streisand : Being Alive

Elaine Stritch : I'm Still Here

Avril Lavigne : We Are Warriors

Friday, May 8, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited: From Book to Movie to Book Again

The not so past past has been a wonderful time for fantasy and science fiction books and films. One lucky story that has stood the test of both readers and cult film is that of The Last Unicorn.

Unlike many of the stories we get so wrapped up in of late, where Vampires and Were's run rampant, a more innocent creature is the focal point.The interpretations of the story can be different, but there is one theme that runs deep.

Love.
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The Last Unicorn
by Peter S. Beagle
212 pages

The original copyright says 1968, which I personally wouldn't have suspected. The story is beautiful, and hints at mytholigy at first. Telling how Unicorns were reacted to and treated in the past.

But the words of a hunter send the Unicorn on a journey to learn what's happened to her kindred. Through the pages and adventure, there are various lessons learned. The reader is introduced to a variety of mythological beasts at one point, only to have most of them to be revealed as fictitious.

But Love, in the end turns out to be the strongest thing by the end of the story. It is definetly a wonderful read. I do not know if a younger reader would find it an easy story to read, but it can be enjoyed by anyone.
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I loved the book. Honestly though, I was first introduced to the story via the film. It is enjoyable, though there are some discrepancies that finicky film watchers might not enjoy.

But that's a different story altogether, and this is a bookshelf, not a movie locker. ^_~

Comic books are a popular thing again, with the rise in the popularity of Manga. So the fact that this story made it's way into the graphic book world is interesting. Especially upon realizing the original copyright.

But then maybe I shouldn't be surprised, since it's a timeless story.
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The Last Unicorn
by Peter S. Beagle
Adapted by Peter B. Gillis
illustrated by Renae De Liz and Ray Dillon

This version is a lovely graphic rendition. Appropriate for comic book readers, or any collector that may have a copy of the original book itself. The artwork is amazing, and every time I pick my copy up I'm always afraid I might injure it in some way.

Honestly I never would have seen this book, if it Hadn't been gifted to me for my birthday earlier this year. I greatly appreciate it, because there's nothing better than a familiar story shown in a new way.
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I highly recommend any of the three incarnations of this book to you. And if you know of another one, feel free to let me know, okay?

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Originally posted November 26, 2011 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Friday, May 1, 2020

Mind Ramblings

You keep taking my breath away. You make my heart skip a beat, and I don't know what to do about the feelings you stir up inside of me. I want to run. I want to give up and let the unknown devour my mind. Because why am I lingering on maybe? Eventually? Someday?

The what ifs' of life, don't make it easier to exist right now. Everything reminds me that there are empty pockets in my life, where as time passes, I can't put anything. If I miss out on the chance to exist now, I may never get a chance again.

Or is it better to exist in the nothingness of someday?

I can't get it right. No choices that I make will make me feel better right now. The choices I have in mind sure make me feel guilty. Because everyone wants me to do the things that are easiest for them. I just need to get the thoughts out of my head. I really wish that I could be happier.

But what  is happiness when the rest of the world is burning in flames?

Is there anything that can fill the emptiness time leaves behind? Are memories actually good for anything? Will my thoughts and dreams matter at all in the future? I just can't figure it all out.

We all have hope. Small glimmers of hope, shining like distant stars in the vast uncertainty and chaos.

I guess that's all we can hold on to now.

But why are we holding on? I just...

I want more.

The Weepies : Please Speak Well of Me

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Exploring Second Life : Finian's Dream

None of us are really going anywhere. There's nowhere to go. Everything is cancelled. We're staring at the same walls, day in and day out. It's starting to get old for a lot of people. Me? Well... I'm tired of being home, but I also know everything I normally would be doing is cancelled.

So I guess that just leaves me with Second Life to explore for now. Anyway here's some pictures of a place I checked out recently called Finian's Dream. Let's pretend their photographs. It's as close to being somewhere else as I'm going to get for a while.












Monday, April 27, 2020

Music Monday : Another Monday

It's another Monday. The days roll past mostly without events changing. I don't even want to talk about it anymore. There's nothing to talk about. I don't even really have inspiration to come up with a positive statement or thought this morning.

All we can do is keep going. That's what we need to do. Keep going.

I hope you're safe. I hope you're healthy. I hope you'll be with me when this is all said and done.

Ricky Martin : The Best Thing About Me Is You

Hanson : Song To Sing

Little Big Town : The Daughters

Tones and I : Bad Child

Eliza Doolittle : Big When I Was Little

Monday, April 20, 2020

Music Monday: This Again Already?

The weeks seem to be going in a haze. It's hard to know what the day really is anymore. It's absolutely crazy. Are we going back to work soon? Are we stuck home for more time? Are we going to have anything better than the void we have been trapped in for... weeks now? Does anyone really know?

I don't know. I'm sorry I don't have any answers for the questions I ask at times. But we're all still floating along, and that's all we can do right now. Keep going. Just because we don't know doesn't mean we have to stop.


Twenty One Pilots : Stressed Out

Julia Michaels : Anxiety

Julia Brennan : Inner Demons

Ruelle - Carry You

Mallrat : Charlie

Friday, April 17, 2020

Everyday Seems to Get Longer

I hate to say this, but it seems like the hold this virus has on the world is never going to end. It may not seem like it has been going on very long to some people, but... to some of us it feels like an eternity. All the days are blending together, making it hard to know exactly what to think.

A lot of people have turned to video games as a way to have company. I have to admit I have as well, though I'm not very good at video games in general. The game I've gone back to playing is Second Life. Don't knock it if you haven't tried it. It's free form, and has something for everyone if you're willing to look.

And since I doubt you want to hear about me sewing masks, or just waiting for the virus scare to end. I figure I can share pictures, and style cards. It will at least break up the time.



Skin :.::WoW Skins::. Eshe Bronze
Eyes & Makeup: [Void ]
                            [V] Lacerate II (Constricted)-- Violet--Eyes
                            [V]Makeup Enhancement-- Cat Liner/Gloss/Blush
                            [V]Lipstick(New Gen)--Black(Gloss)
Hair : Exile:: Britney
Mesh Body : Maitreya Mesh Body - Lara V5.1
Shape: My Own
Tattoo: My own
Clothes & Shoes:
                        #Brigadeiro Open Hoodies [Jelly]
                        ~FF~ Ink Dipped Shorts - Malibu Sunset
                        Maitreya Gold - Shanti Fatpack Lara

- I did use the Baked on Mesh option. My Head is my own head. So I know the skin may not have appliers? Not sure how that all works. ^_^

Monday, April 13, 2020

Music Monday : Hold On

It's hard. I know it's been slow, things aren't necessarily perfect anywhere right now. But everyday is a chance to exist. If all we do is that, we can get through it. We just need to hold on. I know it is hard. It is really, really hard.

But hold on just the same. It will end eventually. We'l make it through to the other side, we just have to make it past this first. Take each day one at a time. It's a little easier than projecting and hoping that the furthest point out is going to be when things go back to the usual. I know it isn't something people want to hear, but it won't go back to the way it was. Not entirely at least. So we're going to need to find a new normal. Which is going to take time.

I'm still feeling nostalgic. So I'm still playing miscellaneous music that  brings a smile to my face, and helps break up the silence of the day. There's too much silence when you're alone. As crazy as that sounds, being alone is way too quiet for me. It lets my mind wander to places it shouldn't. SO here's to holding on and getting past this period of time.

I hope you have a great week.

Remedy Drive : All Along

Kid Rock : Johnny Cash

Karan Casey : Mother Earth's Revenge

Ron Pope : A Drop in the Ocean

Reel Big Fish : Somebody Hates Me

Friday, April 10, 2020

Book Shelf Revisited : Villains Children Know

So in the new year I'm sure we all have been watching the news, and their always trying to paint various people in a villainous light. And I'm seeing a trend. Kids have a habit of turning people they don't know into villains. And today I've got two such stories to share with you about kids and their villains. Neither are very factual, but they are both enjoyable shorts. Just a bit of fluff to lighten things up.
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The Pumpkin Eater
Justin Cawthorne
18 pages

This unique seasonal story looks at the kinds of stories that parents tell children.(You know, if you don't behave the boogeyman will get you" type of stuff) The made up things, like how flashlights scare away monsters. This one is set in October on Halloween and examines what happens when a boy heads somewhere that is frightening. Yet he is determined to trick or treat the place anyway, to prove something to his friend. We learn something very interesting about the person who lives there though, he's not your everyday neighbor.

A fun read for most ages, though an adult should pre-read it to determine if it is appropriate for their child. It isn't traumatizing, but it can seem scary to very young kids.
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The Demon of Walker's Woods
Dan Dillard
79 pages

This story is a much more grim look at the way children demonize older people that they do not know. It also examines the reactions that children have when something awful happens to someone that they are close too. You're shown how they progress to various levels, pushed by curiosity, only to have their fears confirmed. Recommended for and teens and up, children should only read this piece at an adults discretion. As it may be crueler than most can stand.
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Well, Happy reading folks! Hope you have a great day and I hope the new year is going well for you ^_^.

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Originally Posted January 4th, 2012 at http://thebookshelfgoblin.blogspot.com

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

I'm trying. I hope You are Too.

It's still hard to find something to write about. I'm not good. But I really have a feeling  that currently, no one really is all that good. A large number of us are scared, frustrated, trapped, and highly frustrated. We have every right to feel whatever emotions we are feeling. But we do need to remember not to take those feelings out on the people around us.

Yes, we are angry. There are a lot of factors in the worldwide situation that none of us can control. Yes, we are afraid. Who wouldn't be afraid of something that makes us question our mortality. We're afraid of the unknown. And while some folks are trying to play the whole situation down like it is nothing more than an inconvenience to them... There are others who are dealing with the cold frightening reality of living day to day wondering about who may or may not be infected around them.

And this won't be going away quickly. The projection is that there is still over a month of time before we'll know the full extent of how this illness is going to effect us long term. The idea is terrifying. A number of us aren't leaving our homes. Our jobs are... non existent? We don't actually know what is going to happen. There are hundreds of questions and worries, and no answers. At least, not enough answers to make things seem less worrisome.

So yes, some of us are turning to video games to try and cope. We are turning to the arts in just about all forms; movies, music, and digital tours. Anything that might be able to help distract our minds from the unknown and the fears that are filling our minds. A number of companies are offering their services at discounts, or even free to try and help people fill their time. The boon is one that I doubt many will forget when things are over. It's helping people fill time, and break up boredom.

The arts are often overlooked, and even more so of late. At least, prior to this situation. People are so quick to dismiss the arts as worthless. But they are the ones coming to our aid now. Attempting to at least salve the wound that loneliness is cutting in so deep. We're not meant to be alone. Even those of us who say we're fine alone, need some amount of human interaction to function properly.

I'm trying. I'm genuinely trying to make it past this ok. It doesn't mean it is easy. I doubt it is truly easy for anyone. But we need to make the attempt. This can't last forever. It may take time for things to change, but it won't last forever. Normal won't be the same again though. We're all going to need to learn new skills. We're going to have to have empathy. And we are most definitely going to need to start to work together.



Monday, April 6, 2020

Music Monday : Re-finding My Center

It's been interesting, this isolation I've gotten almost accustomed to. It's not enjoyable to be honest, but I understand why it's being done. I've started poking around in my music collection and remembering how happy music makes me. I know I haven't been staying on the ball like I wish I could. This year... has been absolutely insane in so many ways.

So as I have been exploring my collection I have found songs that I've forgotten how much I enjoyed. So I am going to share some of those today. Some I may have shared in the past, but this is more a day to post things that have been bringing me nostalgia and happiness.

The Kooks : Naive

 The Battlefield Band : The Devil's Courtship

Fall Out Boy : The Phoenix

S.J. Tuker : Cheshire Kitten

Dirty Siren : Smile 

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Checking in : Because I Should

I  know I have fallen off the wagon again. But things in general are crazy the whole world 'round. So I am sure many of you understand how it can feel like there's little to discuss or write about. Mostly because many of us are stuck at home. I'm not even sure about writing about possible events that were supposed to be happening this year. A large number of them have already been postponed or cancelled, which is both good and bad.

Good because it is being social health responsible. By not having events where large a number of people gather, it helps reduce opportunities for infection by the virus. But it is leading to social isolation which is hard on people that do enjoy socializing.

Myself as an example. I went from having work 5/7 days a week, tabletop gaming 2-3 days out of seven a week, and social outings with my friends as they would present themselves to staying home. And I usually would get to see my boyfriend, even if just for a little bit at least 6/7 days. Now I get to see him incredibly sparsely and it is a little stressful. We have been called into work on a rare occasion since they imposed the pause, but we worked on disinfecting the school, each of us alone in our sections. But at least we were able to see other people and be out of our houses for a small amount of time.

So now I have a problem. I am a social person, and my social opportunities went from a fair number of days to basically nil. My wonderful boyfriend thought maybe this is an ideal time to go back into Second Life. So the past.... 5 days or so I've started exploring in sl again and looking for things to do. It is definitely filling my lack of social encounters, because the avatars are an illusion of other people. Each one another person in a digital world just like myself.

I know it is not everyones cup of tea. But for me it is helping. Last night we found a sim called Chronicles of Waterdeep, which is a dungeons and dragons themed role play sim. We are thinking about joining in on some para rp, or maybe even some of the missions depending on how many of us end up going. But I just wanted to check in. And share a few snapshots I took from in world. It's not the same as being out in rl, but it is nice.

The sim has an in world visualization of The Yawning Portal, a place that is well known to modules and various dnd campaigns. 

We paused there to enjoy the atmosphere. I was excited because I thought there were ears scattered about on the table... When they finished rezzing they were roses and rose petals. XD

The details throughout the sim are gorgeous! It was fun to bounce around and check things out.

They even have a fully stocked wizarding tower!

And  different places to hang out and just enjoy the atmosphere.


I am definitely looking forward to getting my character sorted out and being able to play with other people.
Yes I know there are other opportunities to play. But I have... a hesitation in doing text only or voice only. I miss the visual aspect of having people all together at a table playing. I even miss things like... fishing or making things in some of the other games. Because even though you may be doing things alone, other characters drift in and out letting you feel as though you are part of something.

Plus... Sometimes I have a short attention span q.q So visuals help me focus.

Anyway. there I have checked in. Not such a bad check in I guess. Maybe a little visual heavy than I have done of late, but If I can't go out, I may as well share some of what I am doing while I am stuck in. I hope things are treating you well, and that you have something in your life that is bringing you joy in this time of turmoil.